zometa - WTF
i feel like seagull poop. no, i feel like seagull shit. smelly.
last time I saw Cannibal, he told he was starting infusing me with zometa - and i should google it (favorite thing to say to me, but who can blame him as most of his clients are over 80 and don’t have internet access) to see if it’s for me. well, it’s not for me, no more so than alcohol is for alcoholics. do the nursies listen to me? not “no” but “hell no”. i got the zometa despite not wanting it. and they didn’t weigh me so they, most likely, gave me enough for someone of much more weight (like, 50 pounds more weight). so i’m falling all over the place and scaring olivia. and messing myself up to boot. (can you say “blood everywhere”???)
i’m glad i got laid off (although it was illegal for them to do that - bossie didn’t know the laws, especially considering i was working at least 42 hours every 4 days).
and i’m glad my neighour phoned social services! maybe now i can live out my life - and littler dog can live out a part of her life - in peace. hey, maybe i can learn how to use that rangefinder before i die.
i’m tired - and my hands are frozen due to the zometa. even B’s blanket won’t warm them up. Littler Dog is doing her best to keep me entertained.
my head hurts.
Oh Ellie. I am so sorry you hurt so bad right now. You are in my thoughts frequently - wondering how you are. I hope littler dog is taking great care of you. Gentle hugs….
Comment by Candace — September 8, 2009 @ 6:08 am
Ellie, I know you hate it when I say things like this to you, but tough! You are such an inspiration to me. No bullshit comes from you. You say what you mean and mean what you say. You don’t sugarcoat and don’t care if people don’t like it.
It is what it is and you say it for what it’s worth. ilu
Comment by Brandee — September 11, 2009 @ 6:47 pm
ah, there you are. Zometa-hell, huh? Crud. You need to post a pic of littler dog. Just wanted you to know that I’ve been thinking about you.
Mary
p.s. what is a rangefinder? Camera? Rifle? Golf club?Stove-locator?
Comment by Anonymous — September 14, 2009 @ 2:35 pm
Whatever you want or need don’t forget you have a Big Brother ( & siser in law) who love you and would do anything for you. Just ask……please ask . I can’t speak for Joe but I can tell you that this is not just your disease, he is in pain also to see his little sister go through this. He loves you and wants to be the big brother you remember and ” make it all better” and knows that he can’t. Please reach out to him and ask for what you need….please , for his sake as much as for yours. I love you. Gina
Comment by Gina — September 16, 2009 @ 2:36 pm
Yes! Learn the rangefinder! And post some photos from it! (And some photos of it as well. I bet it looks cool
Comment by Brian — September 21, 2009 @ 3:40 pm
For those of you reading this BLOG, Eileen, my sister, died Saturday morning at Providence, St. Peter’s Hospital in Lacey, WA. She will be missed.
Comment by Joe Matis — October 4, 2009 @ 7:24 pm