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it’s been two weeks since the last chemo infusion. It’s been five weeks since the last visit.

nothing.

no surprises.

could it be?

did it happen?

has it stopped?

is it over?

can i clear out that drawer in the bathroom now?

or should i just continue to remain cautiously optimistic?

please excuse this x-post from a forum i frequent. it’s important - but my energy is fading fast and i didn’t want to wait to get it in here:

i went to the local fantastic sams today to get my head shaved. i had stopped in there on saturday to see if they even provide that service and was told “yes” - so i said i’d come back when it was less crowded. anyway i went back today to have it done. the woman that took care of me was such a darling. after she finished up she insisted on washing and conditioning my scalp to get rid of the flakes (i’m flakey everywhere - kinda like pigpen from charlie brown) - then took me upfront to the till where she told me my appointment today was free. she said a gentleman that saw me in there on saturday paid for it for me. (to keep the karma chain going i paid for the woman that was seated next to me, but that’s not what i’m getting at.)

i *just* about made it to the car before i burst into tears.

for as horrible as this world may seem sometimes, there is so much goodness in people.